I Don’t Want to Think

 I Don’t Want to Think 

I don’t want to think about how dangerous your job is; then I worry too much. 

I don’t want to think about you not getting enough sleep; that just makes my fear worse. 

I don’t want to think about the way you forget to eat or drink enough water, especially with your career, your lifting and such. 

I don’t want to think of how your mind turns things negative like mine, making you feel like you are living with a curse. 

 

I don’t want to think about who gets your time when we are apart, because then I become envious. 

I don’t want to think about those you talk to online, a distraction from us and the love we share; it makes me jealous. 

I don’t want to think about my life without you; as you became my sunrise and sunset, in case that wasn’t obvious. 

I don’t want to think about you running away because life looks grim without us being us! 

 

I don’t want to think about what happens if your demons win and I end up losing you. 

I don’t want to think about you getting tired of me or thinking I am too much, and not worth it; making you walk away. 

I don’t want to think about how not having you in my life would devastate me, completely shattering my heart; or what I would do. 

I don’t want to think about ever losing my sexy beast, that does not sound like a happy future; sorry to say! 

 

-Angela Stull