Day After Day

 Day After Day 

 

Day after day, I awaken from dreams of you, reach over to check my phone; usually there’s nothing from you, and tears roll down my cheek. 

I lay there until they slow, then it’s time to make myself get up, make myself start my day. 

Feed the cats, wake up the kid and get ready to work out, thinking about how sexy you are to give me the motivation I seek. 

Workout done, kid off to school, time to shower, get ready for work and I’m on my way! 

 

Day after day, I put the hours in at work, extra where I can, to bring in a little more money, but it’s the thoughts of you that help to get me through. 

It’s the memories of your face, your smile, your eyes, the sound of your voice and the times we’ve spent together, that are constantly replaying in my head. 

Whether we are talking or not, it’s you on my mind, and when I’m asleep, it’s dreams of you. 

Every day, you’re my first thought, last thought and many of my thoughts in-between, maybe it will stop eventually when I’m dead. 

 

Day after day, each one goes faster the older I get, time is flying, flying by and I’m without you. 

When we’re together is the only time that while the time is still flying, it almost seems like it slows. 

While those moments never last long enough, I cherish each and every one of them, saving them in the memory bank with the other few. 

While the time still flies, instead of feeling like a speeding locomotive chugging along the tracks too fast, it’s more like the rushing river that flows! 

 

Day after day, I hope for more time with you, more time to talk, more time to get to know one another. 

Time to build on this friendship, to build on this connection of ours, and to build trust. 

But time is moving faster the older I get and I’m afraid I’ll lose you or run out of time before we ever get to be together. 

Like a truck, if you just leave it sitting, neglected, not giving it love and attention, in time, rust! 

 

Day after day, you are my only wish, my 11:11 wish, my wish upon a star, even what I wish for when I look at the moon. 

On my mind, in my dreams, every fantasy, and every wish; if only you could see how much you mean to me. 

Maybe then you would understand that I could never abandon you, or hurt you, I wish you could see that, and soon. 

Because even when I thought I’d never see you again, you were in my thoughts and in my dreams, which is one place I know you will always be! 

 

Day after day, I think of you and remind myself, my heart and my soul that we are just friends, you made that clear; that’s all you want us to be. 

I’ll take it with a smile and cherish every moment I get with you because I’d rather you be in my life as a friend than not at all. 

And if the day ever comes when you think there might be more between us, I will be here waiting for you to love me. 

Because day after day, you are the only one on my mind, the only one I want, the only one I love; but that is your call! 

 

-Angela Stull