Stuck in My Head
Depression has one hell of a grip sometimes, that’s when I find myself stuck in my head...
Things seem distant, when my head is picking everything apart, negative thought after negative thought...
The simplest tasks take forever as my brain keeps me frozen, it took me two hours just to get out of bed...
When I get lost in my thoughts, very little gets done because I get frozen, stuck in my head; a lot!
Days like these are hard to deal with, the depression like a cage holding me in place...
All the negative thoughts bringing me to my knees, with nothing to do but cry...
My brain can be so cruel, playing through every memory, every conversation, everything; showing me all the negative paths to retrace...
As I’m stuck, frozen in place, no choice but to endure the jabs, able to do little, wondering why I even try!
I know eventually depression’s grip will ease; but until then, I’m stuck in my head, unable to do even the simplest things, at least for today...
Wishing I could turn it off, make the thoughts stop, on days like this, I wish I was numb, because I hate this pain...
Days like this, I’m stuck in my head, and it feels like everything, and everyone are against me or walking away...
I feel lonely but I don’t want company, it’s a beautiful day but I have no desire to enjoy it, for all I care, it could rain!
That’s what it’s like to be stuck in my head!
-Angela Stull
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