Maybe if I Knew What You Were Thinking

Maybe if I Knew What You Were Thinking 

Maybe if I knew what you were thinking, it wouldn’t hurt so bad when you pull away. 

Maybe I wouldn't have so many doubts every time it felt like we were finally making progress only for you to take a step back. 

But since I don’t know what you're thinking, my mind instantly goes over what I must have done wrong; determined it’s my fault you don’t want to stay. 

Thinking of all the things could have said or done wrong; maybe it’s something I lack. 

 

Maybe if I knew what you were thinking, knew what was going on in your head... 

It would hurt less when you go a week or more without reaching out to me. 

Just maybe, I could lay down at night and not ponder about everything that could be wrong or wake up wondering if I lost you before I even get out if bed. 

Maybe if you would talk to me about it, then I would know what you were thinking, I would probably understand, I would see. 

 

Maybe if I knew what you were thinking the longer we are apart, the better I could get you. 

If I knew why when things are going well, you suddenly hesitate and hit the brakes. 

I could find ways to ease us past that debris in the road and get us track; if you could give me a hint or two. 

A little communication would be great, if I know what’s wrong, I could try to find solutions to fix it, I’m willing to do whatever it takes! 

 

-Angela Stull