Look at Me

Look at Me 

 

Look at me, not just what I look like, really look at me! 

Look at the person I am, not what I appear to be on the outside. 

Look at me, look into my eyes, look beyond the surface and tell me what you see. 

Look at me, see who I really am, not what I appear to be, see what’s beneath the surface, the true me, the part of me I hide! 

 

Look at me, see beyond the middle-aged woman with wrinkles on my face and bags under my eyes. 

Look at me, see beyond the tattoos, beyond the tired look on my face. 

Look at me, see the woman that never gives up, no matter how hard things get, she still tries. 

Look at me, see the woman that will help people any way she can; no matter your religion, beliefs, sexual orientation or race. 

 

Look at me, really look at me, look beyond the smile, see the sadness in my eyes. 

Look at me, see the wild child behind the woman’s face, the one that just wants to find love, someone she can be her genuine self with for the rest of her life. 

Look at me, see the pain I’ve survived, the reasons behind my guarded heart, see all the lies. 

Look at me, and tell me if you could love the real me, am I someone you could see as your wife? 

 

Look at me, see the scared little girl hiding within, afraid of any more pain. 

Look at me, see what life, what people have done to leave these scars on my heart. 

Look at me, see the pain I hide, the scars I cover up, see the thoughts that drive me nearly insane. 

Look at me, I mean really look at me, because I don’t think you have really been looking from the start! 

 

Look at me and know that I am a strong, independent woman with a fragile heart because I care too much. 

Look at me, see the reasons I don’t want to let just anyone in anymore. 

Look at me and see that I’m tired of not mattering, of not being important, not worth anyone bothering to keep in touch. 

Look at me and see that I have been broken, I have been nearly destroyed, I have been shaken down to my core. 

 

Look at me, look beyond the surface and see the prize within, the woman that would love you with everything. 

Look at me, see the real person you are trying to use for your own selfish reasons. 

Look at me and see that by not truly looking at me, you are wasting what could be the greatest love of your life; with or without a ring. 

Look at me, look into my soul and see that I’m a good-hearted woman with a ride or die sentiment, I’m not meant to pass with the seasons. 

 

Look at me dammit, really look at me and see who the fuck I really am! 

-Angela Stull, 10/8/24